I am glad that God knows how to reveal to us truth after we fought for it for this last week

I'm going to be honest, I wanted what she said to be truth but I asked the same questions in my journal a few days ago

was she really a sister

was she ever even homeless

I just tended to be on the compassionate believing side which even though I was wrong this time I don't regret

but I have learned

I have learned through that I want a discerning spirit

that you can't always just embrace

God will say yes when its yes and no when its no and I have to stop listening so strongly to my heart because God knows it's gotten me in trouble before and God knows there is something wiser in me

I cannot love if I do not have truth because the truth sets us free

 and as good as I know a compassionate spirit is

I want to be able to test the spirit's to find truth to hear what God is trying to speak

I'm thankful for Sarah and Brooke who could barely sleep because they knew something was wrong with this picture

and Jen and Chip who confirmed

and the little things that spoke like DanMike hanging up Switzerland

and the sunshine that sang this morning

and coming home with the windows open and the floor clean and the house feeling like one piece again

i want to learn what I don't know, what my spirit wants to teach me as he the teacher the helper

I want that from him now so I can hear truth

really hear truth

i want my Fathers voice to be clearer to me and I am almost ashamed that I was so mistaken this time... almost ashamed of my naivety 

but to speak truth to that? God uses this stuff to bring us wisdom and this morning I asked for it as I lay in bed after the decision and the prayer and I guess he heard me because I want to hear Him even more now