feel like we have all taken the last 3 weeks to settle down settle in get to know each other

it has taken tears and confessions and kneeling at the cross 

holding hands huddling in the safe room to the left of our doorway

listening waiting casting speaking loving

Sarah with sincere fierce tender eyes

Brooke, the one who looks right at you and can see inside

I know I have a job too, I just can't put my finger on it all of the time

amber is in the bathroom now, straightening her locks of hair

at home again?

it's taken a while to make this home, not just for her, but for all of us

to feel like we can sleep without feeling guilty or pressured afraid that we aren't doing enough

its taking saying no and saying yes

breathing deeply

being honest with each other

playing the guitar when others are working

or working when others are playing guitar

 team work

as a home

bringing

back

that therapy we have learned home is supposed to be

my shoulders still feel in knots

my guitar is on his back waiting for me

I wish I could express what the past few days have consisted of but

I think that is the problem sometimes, we want so bad to express what is going on that we seek and strive and push and pull until we are so confused we can't see straight and what we thought was real isn't

and it's simpler than that, sometimes

God is just God and He is in control and He will bring it about in His time because we are His daughters

and resting more

makes sense

because Martha was more tired than Mary

and Mary was healthier, fuller, softer, more at rest, more like a woman should be

and we can't help when we're tired

so

God

is

teaching

us

to sleep

"unless the Lord builds the house

they labor in vain who build it

Unless the Lord guards the city

the watchman keep awake in vain

It is vain for you to rise up early

to retire late

to eat the bread of painful labors;

For HE GIVES TO HIS BELOVED

EVEN IN HIS SLEEP"  psalm 127