God's truth changes us.

but sometimes.

it is a slow leak.

I often question the things God says and find my faith to be so small when I choose faith over what I last knew.

I thought once that when you know truth it would just be like you woke up one day and you'd be different, but that is not the case. our minds create pathways as we grow according to the things that we believe, and the things that we believe are like very well worn paths - to change the path, to make a new path, it must be walked, over and over and over again before that one looks and feels more convincing than the other one. That is why it is faith. that is why faith is hard at times. it doesn't feel normal to walk off the beaten path.

so, its a slow leak. a continual walk. a constant dripping that puts an imprint in the stone (that quote that sits on the Smith's chalkboard)
a soft wave that slowly slowly slowly softens the edges of a jagged rock
a constant going back to what may feel uncomfortable and unreal.

things happen in our lives that cause us to question the new pathway. (at least, thats often how it goes in my life) its so easy to look at the old way, the old way of thinking and wonder if we are just confused? that maybe this way isn't real. our minds question question question God and His truth until we resolve it - our minds are powerful.

Max said something yesterday, about real faith and how it is often accompanied by unbelief.

that is why faith is a choice - to trust God and act without knowing the outcome. It is usually not the safe way. Safe is to go along with what was always told, or to go with the crowd... or to go with hopelessness when God says

there is HOPE.