Beth Moore said something about chaos

and how when you feel that, there is something unlike Jesus in it

and sometimes you can be just as busy and yet still feel like 

its sustainable its peaceful

and she said, that's God's hand in it.

I feel like that right now. 

I have been talking a lot about changing,

something which I have dealt with my whole life

moving moving from church to church friends to friends

searching for ground

a lot of it was a

lack of stability it has seemed

some of them were

choices I made 

to please people

or make myself someone I am not.

but

once again, no matter how inconvenient it was for me

God let it transpire on purpose

someone of it was God's guidance because I asked Him once 

why 

and He showed me

it was on purpose and that

he was preparing me.

i've already said this.

but, in the last month

new job

new house

new school

new people

new singleness

and somehow it feels correct.

and that feels nice.

and peaceful.

and somehow my palms feel more comfortable up

even though it means that I am clueless about tomorrow

and somehow that seems like Christ, again.

we are close. I felt Him just whisper. we are close.

and that is what matters. 

and somehow that feels correct.