Jesus showed me last week that
i have come out of a new womb
one that he kept me in for an extended period of time
so I would ask Him, really?
one that he kept me in to bring me low
"how low can you go?"
so that I kept contended with Him
and asking myself will I stay with Him
will I
Is HE GOOD?
I don't feel like he is good right now,
I felt
BUT IT SAYS HE IS GOOD.
I wondered if I was really saved and found myself
asking that and then coming to this place of
it is the only thing worth living for
it is the only way
I do want this
I do want this
I do want this

and then I had to rediscover
do I know how?

to throw all my fears onto him
to let him make decisions for me
to move me
to trust my spirit
to even love Him

and I DO love Him! I DO!
and it is not because God is never full of anger or judgement
because God is love, but He also has wrath
But, I get to love Him and feel loved back
because my Jesus came and died on the cross
put his blood over me
stood in my place and drank the cup of wrath
so that God can look at me
call me Daughter
see me AS JESUS
and
love me.

as his own.

and once I grasped this, really grasped it
like I kept asking God to allow
a peace washed over top of me

and.

i was born.


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