God has been
setting my feet
on firm ground
lately

and I like it.

it's true, true, true
that if you have the holy spirit dwelling inside of you then
you are as the wind, you do not know where you are going
this is true

but no excuse to parade around galavant around with no purpose
or reason or goal

I've had to learn this. God has had to seek my out. Teach me this the hard way.

sometimes Christians think that to be good Christians they have to be poor and destitute and have broken cars and part time jobs and live radically
I like radical
in fact i dont think I'll ever live completely normally
but

I do think that the things that make up your life are the things you are bolted down too
concreted in
decisions you've made

You must be wise in them.

Some people get so lost trying to find their purpose that they get old and wonder what happened.
they didn't have backbone I think
or,
something they were bolted down too.

Life must have a spine
who are you
and why are you here

Rod always says, and. I believe this to be extremely important for one to find out

How do I serve the Lord and LOVE the LORD with all of my heart

What is in my heart? I ask.
What do I love?
What do I want?
Am I a hard working?
Am I good with my Money?
What do I want to do?

Lydia sold purple.
and, she was a worshiper

she didn't have a dream one day where God yelled at her and said
LYDIA BE A SELLER OF PURPLE
no,
she probably just loved it
and wanted to use it to sustain her life
and serve the LORD
and so she walked
and worshipped
and God blessed her

God has made me a painter. A Daughter. A singer. A photographer. A Lover. A writer. A poet. A friend. A Best friend. Someday, I hope a wife and a mother. A traveler. A guitar player. a smiler. A Favorite sister. A hair artist. A painter. A cook. A lover of nature. A blonde. a Teacher. A prayer Warrior. And when I become more myself, through God's help (like Tammy's wall says)
I
am
serving
my purpose.


the fun thing is, it is only my purpose
not yours
you are different from me
set apart
for your own witness and walk and worship

I just choose to worship with paint.