i have fallen in love

with a King.

i have not felt him fill me like this is ever so long.
oh, how I have ached for it.
oh, how I have tried to explain it.
oh, how I almost forgot what it feels like.
oh, how I almost began to wonder if it was ever really there.

but, it is, again.

And it isn't because I am doing grand things
but mostly because I am watching him smile at me
and I am pretty ordinary

this weekend I read in Jenn's "Utmost for His Highest"
about the mundane
and how God is in it

God is in me when I am painting, and writing songs
and scraping paint splatters off of my computer screen and my earlobe
or when I am talking with JJean about who I am and who he is and how I do not know
only God knows
what will be

and I have settled in this unknown space
and said
God, you have it
and I have said,
God, you fill me
and
I have found myself content.

not like I don't stop sometimes and think, I am lonely right at this moment
but when I think of it, He FILLS ME

and if he FILLS ME
how much greater will I be when I have something ELSE
ontop
of being FILLED

my cup will overflow.

[and this is what he promises]