warm

is

how I'd describe life right now.

not because work this morning was all that warm, as the lady glared at her corn beef hash which she insisted she had not ordered, she had ordered hash browns and she wanted them now

i did what I could. I told her the cook is new. His name is Robert. things are slower.
my other table whispered to me that she had indeed said corn beef hash.

i adore my job, i do. mostly it is exciting and fun, and people are friendly and tell you that you have very nice freckles, or that you couldn't be twenty-fve, maybe 18 but heavens no! not 25! or that you resemble the lil cowgirl from Toy Story.

but sometimes, you get scary corn beef hash lady

God has been showing me lately that
things will not always come out the way that I'd like them too

Kristen told me there is a good possibility of this in my future

i agree.

God has also been slowly laying his hand on my shoulder, or my head, and whispering
that I can be myself despite the commotion it may cause.

Not that i intentionally ever want to make someone have late hashbrowns

but, it was an honest mistake.
and i can't live in fear of making mistakes or trying to control other peoples emotions toward me
I don't have to be liked or perfect.



P.S. I've been kissed.