confession

I have an addiction to people and people's favor

two things suffer because of this

a lack of sleep and

lack of time with God

sitting with Janessa on the floor of my kitchen this morning

moist hands from washing dishes (with Jesus next to me)

I told her I want a new addiction

Jesus.

[when I am too concerned about the matters of this world] I forget that each little thing, putting mousse in my hair, eating a green apple, slumber, each of these are things that I can do with and for my Lord, but when I am in a hurry or not doing everything I do fully

I find

that the little things tend not to matter much to me and start looking broken and unorganized and dirty (my car, my toenails, the corners of my room, dishes in the sink)

and if I am not faithful in the little I wont be faithful in much

and faithfulness means more than just getting things done

if I am faithfully preparing a meal for my husband

I will do it with love and with care because I want him to enjoy 

every.

single.

bite.

so, too, with Christ

may He enjoy me

as I am faithful

in the little

[and I should prepare my house, my words, my heart appropriately because Jesus will be walking the floors of my house today and really, really, really? He's the only one I should be doing anything for.]

be with me

be with me

be with me