with everything

I would really like to feel that it was the Holy Spirit that did it and in no way myself

2.
gorgeous
this day

Sarah strumming on the roof
we are sure God will bring her a guitar soon (we've been praying)
talking over salad about things falling into place (even the small things)
(Marcy and I said the same things this morning over chai, the waiting is the beautiful part where you just get to work and move where you are and let God move you to the next spot, the waiting is that contentment "piece" as Tony puts it)

that is God's way
we are not supposed to shove the pieces together or
try to fit them where they don't belong
God's pretty good at putting things together without our help
we're helpless, we should remember

and when it's Him that is moving
the answers always clear


because my God is not a God of confusion.

3.

This week I learned that I am not always good at loving people
and when I am it is not my strength shining through

(let your light shine through this bro k en vessel)

I used to think I would sit before an angry God when I was bad at things
always felt like I should be up to standard
and if I don't meet people's standards
how can I meet God's?

But, really, that is what Grace is, I will never meet STANDARD
I am always going to be in PROCESS
always going to be WEAK
always going to be a SINNER
REDEEMED BY THE LORD, FREE FROM FEAR
because fear involved punishment, and there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus and I am in Christ Jesus so I am free from fear

how beautiful it is

HE loves me. He loves me! not just a lil bit a lotta bit

He revealed to me that this is a process... there is progress and that I dont have to be good at everything, I just have to be moving forward with his strength, changing everyday (the Holy spirit, sanctifying me, everyday) looking a little bit more like Christ everyday

HE promises that he will PERFECT, STRENGTHEN, CONFIRM AND ESTABLISH me (1 pt 5)

he loves me in my weak state
that needy state

and no matter how good I get at loving others
I always need to be weak and know it is not me not me not me nothing is every just me
but God in me, doing the work, making the beauty

and when people see that beauty all I have to do is point upward
because God, he's really glorious
and I see that
in
Sarah
on the roof singing him love songs
and Brooke lovin on Marie

and I say,
God is really glorious, isn't He?