my heart has been heavy lately
desirous of truth, and what God really is all about and this great serious mission he has put in my heart
I have discovered my incomparable value and yours
ours
that every second of everyday is important and serious
no more games, really
because I am a daughter of the Most High King
robed in glory
walker of the earth
foreigner here
and every step I take, every word I speak, every room I enter
I am of inexpressible value
I hold the fullness of the Most High God
inside of my body
my spirit moving me like the wind moves
I don't really understand and I am sick of trying and so
I let it take me
the spirit endorsing those great places of peace
even if that means a little shack in the country of Mali or
the back alley
or the feast at the wealthy man's table
or the Tendero's table
it is truly all the same because no matter where I am
I must simply walk in the truth of the great love that has been placed in me
the love that
God shares with me through whispers
this mystery of light that is pouring out of our pores
let it shine
let it shine
before men
that they may see
that God is God
at least say that there is a God because most people don't know
and want to know
and even though I know
I want to know
I want you to say it to me
I want you to tell me how true it is
that's what the foreigners do, you know
they speak the truth in love to one another
until the message is clear and the light is brighter and
the room isn't so dark any longer
[last night at worship]
and so, am I important
is my life valuable?
is every word I type meaningful
you bet your bottom dollar sir
and yeah, my hearts heavy because it's been shared
and not whole
and I am learning to be like Mary
small
needy
rubbing her most precious ointment all over his feet
unlike the others,
desperate for him
clinging to Him
my heart will not be whole until I am able to give it WHOLELY (holy)
to the Holy God
the Lover of my Soul
secure in his love
rooted in it..
dang, that is the most beautiful thing ever created.
1 comment:
chels, i swear. you seem to take thoughts right out of my mind and put them on paper (or screens). the beginning of this entry is EXACTLY how i was explaining it all to my brother a few days ago. it's good to hear these things cuz it reminds me that i am not mentally crazy- atleast, not all the time. its nice to know that others do share the same feelings, and it makes me feel joyeous to know that you (and possibly others) CAN feel the things i feel! shalom.
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