he makes me able to be a mother to someone double my age. that is the way it works. he makes us all things that we need to be at the time we need to be.
this morning I had bible study with my girls and I felt like a mother a sister a friend. the spirit was a live and working and beautiful. it's only because of Him that we start reading about the goats and the sheep of Matthew 25 and end up with a roomful of girls confessing they don't treat their parents and siblings with enough love. crying. making lists of ways to effectively change that. this week will be different. beautiful things will happen. I have loved watching these girls change into woman in the last few years. I have loved watching Marv become such a man, a man that he always was, but I have loved watching him embrace that person.
People are so strong in their tears. in their weaknesses. learning the way of Jesus' hands. When we do this, we learn to love. love can change the world, I believe that and I think all the girls left bible study today--I left-- realizing that we must be Jesus, we must treat others like they are Jesus and we must look for Jesus in every moment. seek him with the entirety of our hearts.
DebaJean is talking to herself in the next room. I believe that she continues to come back because God wants to change her and reveal his face through my face and my hands. Jen's hands. Don's hands. Marv and Joe's. Brad's. Chips. if that means braiding her hair and handing her a bowl of cereal or painting her toenails, or telling her what's upside down in her life: whatever it is. I'm in. it starts here.