God in me?

I am learning about the Father heart of God

lately I have been feeling His warmth

and His quiet but commanding powerful still small voice

gentle

(His gentleness makes me great) Ps 18.

Sometimes I imagine myself sitting with Him over coffee

an image Jen gave me

and a way I had been trying to see Him for years

instead of this angry

condemning God

that I had seen Him as for so long

(condemnation, the very opposition of his character)

and I have fallen in love with my Father's hands

the way His light falls over my arm

coming through the big window by the sun

I want to see more of Him

and bring more of this Kingdom

that has been installed in my very body

to the doorknobs

the porches

the rooms

of the neighbors on this street

I have been asking God to reinstall that passion in me

for the souls of other people

to bring them out of that darkness that they have deemed comfort

wreaking of demons and dirt

I have decided to believe that there is peace within my very soul

something I cannot always taste

but people see Him, they literally see Him

smell Him

feel Him when I am near

not because of myself

but because God had drawn me close to His chest

and held me there

even when I fight it

The breath of His nostrils has fallen over me

into my hair

my song

my heart

and people cannot help but see

what I do not see

in myself

but so often see in others

I can enjoy others

I do not want to slander another (Jesus help me)

because my Savior is resting within

and has taken his own yarn

and knitted that body together

and I believe that

anything he wants to change 

if I ask

He will change

nothing is impossible

for God.

(We are the Kingdom of God breaking into peoples poverty

smothering them with light that cannot help but break through ribcages

and leak into hearts. Oh, the beauty of the BODY of JESUS CHRIST!)

"Life would be so much easier if we just 

enjoyed one another" - Dustin

Ps 8

What is man that thou dost care for him

take thought of him?

Yet

Thou has made him

a little lower than God

and dost crown Him

with Glory and MAJESTY