South Africa.

So, I'm in South Africa.

This is still just a place. God is still extraordinary. It is interesting the things that He teaches you when he removes you from your element.

He's been teaching me about FREEDOM. I have always looked at it and wondered, like it was something so far away from my grasp, something I was always reaching for, becoming exhausted to obtain. Freedom is from God. He has already given us everything we need. The fullness of everything is in us when we accept God. The fullness of God is in me. We just have to learn to walk in it, like habits engrained in us. We are used to walking in ways of the flesh, used to see ourselves.. we must get used to looking at God. Freedom is from God.

He has been training me in the last few years how to be content. He has been teaching me how to walk by the spirit and not by the flesh. What it means to seek peace and pursue it. God asks me to become a lot of things, but the key is, am I becoming like God. Am I seeking after God, and putting his clothes on? What does it look like to walk as a child of light? I am the light of the world. I am filled with the spirit, but sometimes I feel so distant, and these are times when my eyes are clouded, when I have not asked the Holy God to bring light into areas of my life. Only when His light penitrates darkness can I see. I want to see, GOD! I want to see. Make me see.

Yesterday I was holding a lil precious two week old baby that was thrown into a field at birth. I was walking the wetlands, tip toeing over the filth. This is what people walk in everyday, with barefeet. We have been working in Masipulimele which means "We will succeed." It is a community of shacks that we can see from the teamhouse. I can't believe people live like this, but at times I wonder, how bad would it be, really? Is it riches we want? is it high society? Sure, this is my culture, but are we not to break away from the patterns of the world? I wonder what this looks like? Daniel always asks people, would they still want to go to heaven if there weren't going to be streets of gold. Would they be content with just the fullness of relationship with God? And I am learning, in my soul, that that is truly what I want, and I want to do what it takes to get the fullness of the LORD! I am willing to give up... what my flesh has wanted. Sometimes it takes months of struggling against fleshly things before these bonds that I have to certain things are broken off. It is BECOMING new, thinking in a new way. Like Christ. We have been given the minds of CHRIST because he richly dwells in US! The spirit of GOD dwells in us.

We have a vast vat of wisdom and knowledge in that. Maybe God is more concerned with my inner beauty then he is with me being a paniced exhausted person trying to fix the world. God does not need me.. I think he wants us to do things for Him after being filled with His power, and peace and love... walking in His spirit. It is the days that I feel filled with the Lord God ALMIGHTY and with the knowledge that I am able to do ntohing without Him and that anything is possible with Him - on those days I offer up prayers of belief. On those days I think out of myself. On those days my heart is a live.

My time here has been eye opening, I feel unable to express everything he has and is putting inside of me. But I know one thing, He is putting it inside of me, and will continue the work he has started. I do love God, not with my entire heart soul and mind, but I am learning. I don't love people in the way that I love myself, but I am learning. I want it. I am learning to want things, new things, to see dreams birthed in me that I can only walk into with the Lord's help. For now, He has called me to become righteous, faithful in all I do, to love Him, to love His people, He has called me to be truthful and selfless, gentle and quiet in spirit - doing good works which please Him. Maybe my calling is just to become more like Him as I walk. It can be great and simple. Godliness with contentment is great gain.